The need to control..

Seriously got to get everything back in control.

Everything's spiralling out of control.

Finances. Seriously overspending this month. To the extent i worked for free last month. That's how much i overspent. Air tickets, grooming (i lumped facial, eyecare everything into there.. and i sound gayish here), clothes... There's a dire need to diversify my income source. Can't rely solely on my main paying job!

Running. Have been trying hard to clock at least 60km per week. But this week was bad. Onli managed to clock 25 km. Not even half of my targeted mileage. Now then i know workplace has so many running enthusiasts. Have been knowing new people every week. Looking forward to every sat morning for the long steady run training. (at least 35km per run) And I have finally resigned to the fact that gals can run too. I got lapped by all the gals in the team. Normally I am always at the finishing line, encouraging my brothers to cross that line. Now It's the opposite. They encouraged me and asked me to smile while they took a pic of me when i crossed that line. Ego? no more. They are going hongkong for a marathon in Feb. Trying to do my financial sum on whether I can go.

Sometimes i just wonder. Why do i do all these only at this age? hahaa.. I am abt to cross the peak period of my life... at least biologically. haha. If i were to choose, I would want my past 7-8 years back. Spending time on things that's not worth it. I need timE! i Don't want to grow old! I sound like a guy who is undergoing menopause...(i know that's another term for the guy's version of menopause... but i dun know the exact term..) hah...

Time wait for no one. Cherish the time and do wat i want before i settle down.